My Greatest Fear

As I watched Americas Funniest Home Videos (a.k.a. 'Nad Pain Iz Funnee") I watched a clip of a young boy who slipped and fell in his birthday cake. He cried for a bit and everyone laughed at him. Including me. After a while it occurred to me that perhaps the child cried not because it hurt but because he thought that he had ruined something. Something that was a one of a kind happening. I’ve had that feeling several times in my life and it’s one of the worst feelings I can remember. My greatest fear is that I’ll reach the end of my life and realize that I’ve screwed it up beyond redemption. That this special, one of a kind happening was gone forever. That I've fallen into my life's birthday cake. And everyone will be laughing.